this question about regret after suicide

“I probably can't explain it better than that. To discover that I was not dead when I had just killed myself left me confused and amazed. A thought came to me. For one moment, I was so sad my children and my mother would be grieved by my death. I regretted the pain my death would cause the family.”9:38

“And just the feeling of utter and absolute remorse, and it, it is of the degree that later when I think about kids and stuff like that, it was that remorse of being a failure that had led me to the two suicide attempts I had made before that day.”15:11

“Because of that feeling that I had after my life review where I just wasn't ready to die, it was kind of this indescribable anger with myself and regret, and it was just like I would never ever want anyone else to have to feel that.”12:26

“perspective. Yeah, that's a big one. So you feel the effects that you had on other people during your time on Earth. And that's the hardest one because it feels so heavy. You don't regret so much when people were mean to you or when people took an advantage of you, but that feeling of regret is so strong on how you affected other people. So that one then it kind of hangs on for a while and then you're in a space where all that's left is love. There's nothing else. Everything, even compassion is part of love. Appreciation”44:10

“I realized that I should have had all these remorse and all these regrets and, you know, realizing I had to repent for my own good because I had a lot of bad things accumulated, you know, not just during the very last moments of my life before I transitioned.”33:09

“And I remember just the feelings I had were that of regret and that of loss and that of a lack of progression, like a loss of this lack of progression. It was profound, and it was deep, deeper than anything I can ever remember feeling.”13:09

“Um, so I, I, I had killed myself, and I remember being in this like limbo space at first that I couldn't get out of, that was really hard, and then finally I got out of it, and it was, there was real regret, and thinking back then, like, I'm never going to do this again.”50:31

“And it was also thoughts of, I wish I was able to apologize to him before this even came. And when I did hit my face on the rock and everything went blank, I thought I didn't have the opportunity. So in that place, I had moments of regret, moments of feeling lonely, just wishing I could have been more to my family than who I chose to be.”2:15

“And she went on to say, this was the most common regret of all. When people realize that their life is almost completely, it's almost over, and look back clearly on it, it's easy to see how many dreams have gone unfulfilled. Most people hadn't honored even half of their dreams and had to die knowing that it was due to choices they had made or not made. Health brings a freedom very few realize lives until they no longer have it.”35:29

“It was just a realization. There wasn't a lot of emotion attached to the fact that I had just died. Um, and when I came back, I was a little ashamed of that because I felt guilty. See, that boy, when I died, when I first realized I died, I thought, shouldn't I have been worried about my friends, my families I'm leaving behind? What kind of suffering or whatever, you know? I worried about that when I came back.”2:46

“I saw when I did something stupid when I was a little girl and how deeply it affected another little girl, and I'm like, "Oh my God, I wish I hadn't done that."”7:07

“It was my own personal sadness, my own personal understanding that I could have made so many other choices, options, and I had say a sole regret.”1:01

“In that suspended moment where time seemed to be absent, I experienced an overwhelming wave of remorse for the wasted and unacknowledged moments of my life.”24:39

“Not only do you see all these things in the life review, you feel them from their perspective. Yeah, that's a big one. So you feel the effects that you had on other people during your time on Earth, and that's the hardest one because it feels so heavy. You don't regret so much when people were mean to you or when people took advantage of you, but that feeling of regret is so strong on how you affected other people.”4:21

“better. I would have had more impact on people, the town, everything. Had I used my intuition, had I worked from my soul. And so when I understood the importance of living and breathing and working from your soul every moment and it's so easy on the other side, I was like, "Okay, put me back in. I'll do it." Like, "Sorry, I didn't know. But now I do. Put me back in." And that's when they said, "You can't. It's too late. You died and you'll never be that person again." To which I had the most intense regret”7:40

“An overwhelming sense of emptiness and remorse saturated me.”18:28