Will I get the chance to raise and be close to the child I never got to raise here?

“Well, here I did experience that that feeling from somebody else, that same feeling of ideal parents. As you know, I wasn't raised with my parents. I was raised in an old girl, a strict, very strict Catholic boarding school in Brussels. So, um, here, what, what I could feel when I raised my daughter, I could feel, oh, that's how it feels to be unconditionally loved. And I was experiencing as I was raising my daughter, I was experiencing for the first time all the emotion that I should have felt if a mother had loved me, or if a parent had loved me.”19:51

“And after we had delivered the baby and and Mom's goes one way, and we would have to, uh, take the baby to the nursery. We had NICU, um, intensive care, because so many of these kids were so sick. Um, I don't know when the soul finally went into it, or did it? You know, I don't know if that baby survived or not. It's so many, uh, fetal demises. Um, but what a blessing that was. You know, maybe, maybe 20% of the babies I got to see that. I got to, why, why did I get to share, share that on the other ones I didn't see? Did the baby come in earlier? Um, was it just not chosen for me to be the witness to that particular spirit? Just an absolutely amazing, wonderful blessing that I had in my life to get to experience that. And I shut my eyes, I can see them right now.”41:04

“And all of a sudden, that just transformed. It was like as if I closed my eyes with this feeling of peace, and then I arrived at the very original place again with the Blessed Mother and Jesus. And this understanding, and this time, he was more like if you can imagine larger than life, as if there's a larger sun, and I'm microscopic. So from this place, but it seemed as though the Blessed Mother kind of in front of me, and I saw her holding an infant. And I saw her kiss this infant. And then handed it to my mom. And my mom, of course, my dad are alive, they're on the other side, they're here. And I, and this awareness was, I had a child. Oh my god, not on the day that my daughter's born, I'm not going to leave her motherless.”14:26

“I got to see the person one more time in their light being state. I believe it. It was, it was like a healing, um, just because I was so broken at that point. I think just life in general, and and I, and I still, I just wanted a baby too.”29:52

“The closest I can describe it, really, and it doesn't even come close, was really remembering when my first child was born and holding him and just locking eyes with him, feeling a love overtake me that I really had never felt for anybody before, and knowing that we would be connected forever on a spiritual level.”4:29

“The closest I can describe it really, and it doesn't even come close, was really remembering when my my first child was born and holding him and just locking eyes with him, feeling a love overtake me that I really had never felt for anybody before and knowing that we would be connected forever on a on a spiritual level.”5:34

“I was then given glimpses of life ahead, still to be lived. Those included the seeming challenges I would face along with all the precious beauty that was inherent within them. I was shown the children that I would birth into the world. I felt my love for them and theirs for me, along with the love between me and many others yet to come into my life.”16:39

“And then I had the feeling almost instantly that I was being held the way a baby is held by a parent. I couldn't see anything because all I saw was the light, but it can know things without seeing them visually. And I knew that the parent was embracing me, and I knew that the parent was pouring his love into me. I was ready to just hang out there forever. I was so complete and happy, and I loved the parent too. That's one thing I can say. I had loved that.”16:19

“pregnancy, you wonder what's my baby going to look like? What's my baby going to look like? And you can't wait to meet them. And when I looked at her, I felt like I had known her forever. That she was so familiar. I remember thinking, "Oh, of course that's what you look like." like I I know this face. It was really unexpected and to me it was a spiritual thing because uh it just felt like a spiritual connection, you know. And anyway, and then a couple days later when I was holding her at home, I”7:29

“one with it. And I was able to look back at the  experience of being merged with it with awe. Then the presence communicated with me wordlessly  – heart to heart. It asked me telepathically, “Do you want to go on with me or go back?”  With no hesitation, telepathically I replied, “I want to be with you forever.” Immediately the  presence gave me a vision. I saw several dozen children looking up at the sky, waving goodbye to  me and my own two little ones were standing in the front. At that time, I had a two-year-old daughter  and a three-year-old son. My heart was torn and”3:09

“It was shown to me that my children would be raised by someone else, maybe another woman, that they would not get the same exact experience that they would get as with me as their mother. And that I love them very much. I wanted them to turn out a certain way, and kind of the traditions that they set up in their lives, and their character is being shaped by me in a very loving, specific way.”8:42

“My experiences were certainly also an enrichment. I was able to encounter children differently, to perceive them differently. We were certainly also able to prepare for the birth in a different way thanks to our way of life. Thanks to my wife's strong will, the children were able to be born at home and enter a reasonably healthy world. We were also able to make emotional contact. It was also interesting that at the beginning, when the children were born, I had very intense dreams. I was able to dream about some of my son's past life and develop a certain understanding of what he perhaps brings with him as a burden.”45:21

“I cherished the sight of the baby I saw within the light till date. When I told my husband about it, we both cried the day away, but it calmed us down. We knew God had taken care of our affairs and that there will be new beginnings in our life.”6:16

“baby. Did you think about your baby at all when you were in this experience? >> No. None of any of my concerns that I had on the earthly plane, if you will, were with me at that. The only thing I felt was that draw to this incredible over all beautiful, all-encompassing love. And if not for the two of them telling me to go back, I would have continued toward it. That was the only thing I wanted to be in the presence of that. Do you feel like you had a choice or they were making you go back? >> No, I think that after they first tried”19:36

“I was part of it, perhaps. I literally, I knew who, I knew who it was so much that I didn't even question it. It was just this incredible connection that, that just was bigger than life. It was, there's no words to like, even explain it because it was right next to me, and it just, I knew who it was. It was just, was it? I knew that I could talk to it, and I could tell it my heart, my heart's wishes were to protect my children through their lives. And, you know, it gave me my, my life again. And my son, who was just a little critter, and my daughter, who was just a baby, um, you know, they're 42 and 34 years old, and I've been able to help guide them and love them through all these years.”82:47

“So I just kept saying to her soul, I love you, I love you, I love you. And I didn't hear words in response, but I could feel the love coming back. It was completely mutual. The reason I so want to share that experience with all of you is by way of saying something that I already knew intellectually through my research into pre-birth planning, but this was an experience of it. And that is, no matter how difficult or challenging your relationship with a particular person may be in this incarnation, on the other side, there is nothing but love between the two of you. That is what I experienced with my mother. And if that is the nature of our relationship after what's happened in this lifetime, then I know that that is the nature of all relationships between all beings.”9:40