What if I'm so ashamed of what I see that I can't forgive myself?

“They showed me every little thing I ever did wrong from throwing kittens in the air and not always catching them on their way down to stealing money and someone else taking the blame. There is no judgment, only reflection. It was my consciousness that made me feel bad for doing all of the things I had done.”5:15

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was actually after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was, and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her; it was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So if I had committed a loving action, it was like love upon love upon light. A purely loving action was the most wonderful thing that I could ever achieve in my life.”0:54

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there were, they're actually after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level. After seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her, it was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So, if I had committed a loving action, it was like love upon love upon light. A purely loving action was the most wonderful thing that I could ever achieve in my life.”0:54

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was, there actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was, and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So if I had committed a loving action, it was like love upon love upon light. A purely loving action was the most wonderful thing that I could ever achieve in my life.”0:53

“I felt proud of when I was good and very ashamed when I wasn't. They said I needed to forgive myself.”14:28

“Each time I went through this, I felt more blissful. I felt like, as I saw things, is that I didn't have hate or animosity towards anybody anymore, or myself. Like, so many times, people, they beat up themselves. They have such guilt and shame and regret for things in their life, and they torture themselves.”16:39

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was, they're actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So if I had committed a loving action, it was like love upon love upon light. A purely loving action was the most wonderful thing that I could ever have achieved in my life.”0:54

“I found myself not only forgiving her there, they're actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So if I had committed a loving action, it was like love upon love upon light. A purely loving action was the most wonderful thing that I could ever achieve in my life.”0:54

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was there actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was, and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.' So,”0:53

“I found myself not only forgiving her; there was, they're actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her.”0:54

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was, they're actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.'”1:09

“no one can judge me any harsher than I already  judge myself. It was like getting "caught" by my parents when doing something wrong. During the hurtful review, I was so ashamed, and there was no hiding it. He was asking me,  "What different choices could you have made? What are you learning from this?" Not yelling  at me and saying "How could you do that!?" or, "You're going to Hell!" This was not the  punishing God I had been taught to believe in. The hardest part of this was realizing He had  already forgiven me; I was having a hard time”4:26

“forgive. Everything is in perfect divine order. And of course, I was weeping, thinking, "How can that be? How can that be?" And then I had what I've learned is called the life review. I began to see my life, you know, I saw my parents' divorce and what that did to me, my it made me so insecure and my self-doubt and my not enoughness. And I saw my brothers and the role they played in my life as my best friends and my heroes. And I saw things even when I'd say, "Oh, that that was a mistake. I didn't mean to do”28:42

“I I only judged my myself. But I found a lot of lot of forgiveness and stuff.”21:04

“And it just poured through me. There's nothing to forgive. Everything's in divine order. And I, I began to see my life. I've now learned it's called the life review. I mean, you know, they'll say, well, your life flashes before your eyes. I was looking at my life and I was seeing it so much differently, embrace of unconditional love. And I'm attempting to justify. I'm like, well, that, that was a mistake. I, I didn't mean to do that. That was a mistake.”16:50

“I found myself not only forgiving her, there was, they're actually, after seeing everything so clearly and seeing why she was the way she was and who she really was on a soul level, after seeing that, there wasn't even a need to forgive her. It was just a big, 'Oh, I get it now.'”0:54