Is suicide an unforgivable act, or does God understand that depth of desperation?

“Although some religious people taught that those who killed themselves went to hell, I never believed this to be true. In my understanding, God loves unconditionally and does not punish people by sending them to hell. The idea that suicide victims are condemned to hell is a misconception that has been taught by many religions.”8:44

“Like, you reach out and you're screaming, 'God, why? God, why? Why me? Give me an answer.' And then nothing. You're nothing back. So, at this point, I was like, 'Well, they say the unforgiving sin is like suicide.'”60:53

“Happened to me and God showed me unconditional love and he fully accepted me without judgment, without condemnation, like for my sins, like explained me that sin hasn't existed. This is a human conception. God, God are not, um, not judging you, not, um, wanting you to like go to hell or something like that. Of course not, hell from God's perspective, it's hell is doesn't exist.”1:25

“God also showed me that the harder a lifetime is, the closer we get to passing the test. He showed me that suicide won't send you to hell, but you carry the pain with you, and you need to come back here and start all over again.”4:51

“God still loves them. God does not cast anyone into hell. Many souls, however, create their own, remaining in darkness because they do not believe they are worthy of love after the awareness of the choices they made. They cannot forgive themselves. I saw that those who had chosen paths of destruction. Murderers, terrorists, even those who had surrendered their power to darkness were not condemned by God, but rather by their own refusal to accept divine love. Suicide too may lead to this crossroad where the soul must”12:56

“If God or source or the light or whatever vernacular you choose, was and is not all loving, yet there was none of them. And that itself is where the danger comes in for experiencers that are struggling to reintegrate because knowing that you are not going to be judged, you're not going to be forsaken, you're not going to go to hell for committing suicide, leaves an open door for some who simply cannot take the level of suffering, who feel that they have no support here, who don't know about these, the resources that are out there, or feel that everything is out of pocket, and they don't have the financial resources for that.”38:54

“So the two things I'd like to hit just in general about the near-death experience is that God loves us, all of us, even the worst of us. And we are commanded to love others. And let me tell you, the harder they are to love, the more important to love. That stresses me. There are a lot of people I really can't say I love, but God loves them. So what are you going to do? That when we die, even with suicide, we're met with love. There are lessons to be learned. It's still a major no-no, but it's not like you're going to burn in hell forever. Like I said, I've never heard that from suicide attempts. I've talked to plenty. This has become like a subspecialty of mine.”44:47

“I kept thinking I would ask God for all these treasures. Nothing happened to heaven. From I was in the prayer room, you know, when I got to the prayer room, or when I got to heaven, you would have thought that I would have asked God for, 'Release me from suicide.' But I couldn't think about it. He wanted to take away something. He wanted to take away pain, which sounds just ridiculous. How can anybody reach inside of you and take away pain? And how can I reach inside and grab it and give it to you? And yet you can. God can take away our pain, and that's what he was after with me. I just needed to know who he was first.”9:29

“It was so like, I wanted to end the torment that I was in. I mean, imagine committing like the ultimate sin, especially on church property. The conviction, the, the, the shame, the guilt, and the torment of that was it was horrible. And I, I couldn't take it no more. I, like I was struggling what to do in my life. I wanted to end my life. I wanted to just, I didn't want to do anything. I didn't quite want to go as far as ending my life because I knew God existed. I knew the spiritual realm existed. So I just got to the point where I couldn't take it no more, and I literally in my bedroom got on my knees, and I looked up to God and I said, 'I can't take this no more. I don't know what to do. Father, do whatever it takes to get me right with you.'”35:53

“And then I heard, I heard, um, what I can best describe as a funeral dirge, a sound of moaning through heaven. And, uh, it was a cry of the Lord for the lost, for those who had been separated from him. And I know and I knew it because I felt his heart, and he was grieving for them. I mean, do you see it? God grieves over those whom he created to be his children, and yet would reject Him, and that in His love, He would allow them to, because love requires it. But that's also why God was willing to enter into our suffering to take the bullet for us. He was crucified on a cross to remove every barrier between you and me and God, except one: our free will.”81:26

“I, I don't think. I think that after being through this, that for each of us, God has a select time, and it was not my select time. I, I don't believe that. Of course, if, if I have patients that commit suicide, they, they commit suicide, but no one just kills themselves unless it's accidentally. They, most people that commit suicide have probably talked with God or mulled it over in their mind for months or years. And I don't, I'm not even privileged to say, or I would never take that privilege away to say that I think those people go against what God wants or anything else because that's, that's their heart, and they have to follow that. You know, that's between them and God. But I will say that I don't think I could have chosen to die at that time.”7:30

“Um, I I was in the arms of a God that was so loving, that was so accepting, that was so forgiving. In fact, I was told, 'There's nothing to forgive.' It's all perfect. And so that doesn't necessarily equate to an entity that would put me in hell or would punish me or would, you know, cut me off in a way that that there was no connection, because what I experienced was that connection could not be denied. I could probably walk away from it. I probably could have run away and not even been embraced by by God, if you will.”47:59

“And that encounter, Jen, when you were in heaven and you heard the voice of God speaking to you, and you, and you felt this love, the God of love. And the Bible also references the God, God as love, consummate love. When you've, when you felt that, and you indicated that if you were to, uh, commit suicide or you were to die, that is would grieve your loved ones. What is it that pro, what is it that motivated you to feel that way, given that you were hearing the voice of God now? Did you feel that love that you had then not felt previously in heaven?”29:16

“Now, the experience of Heaven, being there, just really transforms people. But coming back can be quite difficult after experiencing pure perfection, pure love, and coming back to this place. Oh, that is not fun at all. Some of the people become very depressed, chronically depressed. A few try and commit suicide, only to be told, you know, to have a second near-death experience and be told you are not to decide when you want to die. That is the, the only thing I hear in terms of God being stern. I never hear anything but God being the most loving, kind, compassionate, easygoing, you know, you can say anything to him. The only time I ever hear him being stern is when somebody commits suicide. Apparently, that is not for us to decide.”27:55

“God then started talking to me. He told me all that had gone wrong. He told me just how sick I was. He told me he knew I had wanted to end my life before the surgery and that he understood how much pain, disability, and depression I had suffered. He let me know he was very aware of how hard I had fought. He offered me a choice. He told me he had come to me to show me what death was like and that there was nothing to be afraid of. He said the way I was feeling would be how I would feel for all of eternity. He told me all the pain and suffering would be over. I could rest if I were to follow him. The feeling was so wonderful, so peaceful, so calm, so perfect.”2:24

“And I think it's First Corinthians 10:13, God will show you a way out. And I had heard that early on, shortly after the suicide. I thought, this is my way out. This is God's mercy.”11:06